One day or day one?

26.08.24

Today, for the first time, I will be thinking differently. "I just can't concentrate" is how I have thought for years, never was this true, I was simply a lazy person. After reading Atomic Habits: An Easy & Proven Way to Build Good Habits & Break Bad Ones by James Clear, I have revised my outlook on basic tasks. What once was picking up my phone to 'check one last time' (turning into hours of mindless scrolling) is now someone who refuses to waste their life away.

It has taken me years to realise just how much damage I'd caused myself. One minute you are falling behind on tasks and four years later you are realising you will only be going to university in 2026 purely because you put what you considered more entertaining in front on what needed to be done.

I have been on and off learning languages since the age of 13, my french was excellent, I'd mindlessly picked it up during my lessons in secondary school. I hardly ever required help and would score top grades however this did not last. My attention span greatly dropped however I was still convinced this would get me through my exams, and it did, barely securing me a grade. I could use the excuse of having bad circumstances but unfortunately it would be a waste of time, I definitely did not have it the worst and I am confident people who did performed better.

A less serious version is this is my Korean progress, although there is no time limit to learn a language, I have been disengaged purely because of my procrastination. I could have 6 and a half years of Korean, but today I am sat here wondering if I can even say 'I like studying'.

As of today, I'd like to hold myself to a few things. The first being sticking to a gentle study regime, I know I am capable, and I know I can make it work. If you have read this, thank you for listening to the beginning of my journey.

Isbeey out.